Depression's a bitch...

[Nobody]

It really is.

I'm going to a psychiatrist starting next year...I just noticed that I can't go on, just waiting and hoping for things to get better.

But I'm really scared...I've been eating my own heart out for 6 years now...and I'm afraid of opening up...I'm scared out of my mind, that help will change me. I don't want to get rid of all this negativity just to find out, that it was the reaon I was such an extroverted person up until now. I'm also...kind of ashamed of going to get help, because I know other people have it worse than I do...it makes me feel...selfish...to think of myself, eventhough other people need help too.

I'm basically killing myself thinking about it all the live long day. Please...someone tell me how to go about this.

Thank you in advance.

[BenJohnson]

If help is being offered take it. I went for years without being diagnosed, and it didn't do me any favours. I am still me, but better than before. No matter how much better or worse you are than other people if it is affecting your life then do something about it.

[k2hsharpe]

I've never been in your situation so I wouldn't offer any advice
but I hope the New Year brings you the peace
you deserve in your life

[Yog]

First thing, being a little selfish is OK. If you aren't happy with yourself then you won't be happy with anyone. Second, if feeling good about yourself means being a little less extroverted then is that really so bad? It's not like you are going to go to bed one night as Chris and wake up the next day as not Chris. No, you'll still be Chris, just maybe a butterfly instead of a caterpillar. Change happens, don't fear it, just take it head on. It's the only way to survive.

[Nobody]

Hm...I guess you're right yog...thank you...

Eyes opened and ready to see clearly now. Thank you so very much.

[Yog]

Fear and depression are best friends. When you start facing the fear, you'll be facing the depression. It looks to me like you have taken those first few steps that are the hardest. Good job, now keep going. :thumbup:

[smorzando]

Good luck. Depression is definitely a bitch. It is perfectly fine to be selfish once in a while. Peeps like you prolly aren't selfish very often. You need to be selfish sometimes!! :hug:

smorz.

[Mr. Blocks]

I was diagnosed with depression.

I was put on medication. I don't know, people see depression in different ways, the two I most hear are:

"It's a chemical imbalance in your brain, starving you of those "feel good" hormones".

And the other is pretty much "I have issues with everything, past, present, future, I need to talk to someone to help me".

I am number one. I've had issues in the past but I wouldn't say it contributed to my depression, I think it's mental illness and the only way for me to beat it, probably medication. Talking to someone won't "cure" your depression if you suffer from it as an illness. If you have just issues then.. stop being awkward and go help yourself out man.

It is so pointless to feel guilty just because others are worse off, there is always going to be someone worse off than you are, which means with your logic you will always feel guilty? Doesn't quite seem fit does it?

Depression is a bitch, like I've said before. It's the worst when you know you should be happy with what you have, but still you feel like an abyss of crap. You'll be lucky if you don't have that.

Everyone needs help, just be glad you are one of those that is able to get help. Think of yourself right now, and not of people you don't even know. They are not your issue.

[Nobody]

I was diagnosed with depression.

I was put on medication. I don't know, people see depression in different ways, the two I most hear are:

"It's a chemical imbalance in your brain, starving you of those "feel good" hormones".

And the other is pretty much "I have issues with everything, past, present, future, I need to talk to someone to help me".

I am number one. I've had issues in the past but I wouldn't say it contributed to my depression, I think it's mental illness and the only way for me to beat it, probably medication. Talking to someone won't "cure" your depression if you suffer from it as an illness. If you have just issues then.. stop being awkward and go help yourself out man.

It is so pointless to feel guilty just because others are worse off, there is always going to be someone worse off than you are, which means with your logic you will always feel guilty? Doesn't quite seem fit does it?

Depression is a bitch, like I've said before. It's the worst when you know you should be happy with what you have, but still you feel like an abyss of crap. You'll be lucky if you don't have that.

Everyone needs help, just be glad you are one of those that is able to get help. Think of yourself right now, and not of people you don't even know. They are not your issue.

Harsh...and direct...thank you. I like your honesty.

But I must say:

Depression is a disease that's also passed on from parents to children. I don't suffer because of my past only. I suffer because I am sick. Thinking of my past just gives me another punch in the face. Know what I mean?

[Mr. Blocks]

Harsh...and direct...thank you. I like your honesty.

But I must say:

Depression is a disease that's also passed on from parents to children. I don't suffer because of my past only. I suffer because I am sick. Thinking of my past just gives me another punch in the face. Know what I mean?

I know exactly what you mean.

What I have now may have been passed down to me by my parents, I can't be sure because I don't know my parents well enough to make a clean evaluation of it. But yes, what I have also it a medical condition, which can't be "fixed" by mere talking about it.

Thinking about our past seems to be what depression does. And then when you aren't thinking of the past, but of the present or future, you can only pick out the worst of everything, no matter how great it is. You know perhaps that everything hasn't ever been so good, yet you can't see how good you have it because your seeing only the worst in it. Know what I mean?

For me, it's like I can do nothing but think of the most horrid things that I've seen or been through, and then I will try to find the worst in even the most precious things to me.

Depression is horrible, I noticed how it really changed my character, I can think back now to how I used to think about things and the things I said to people.. and can't actually understand why I'd have said the things I did. But of course, it's what depression is.

I don't mean to sound harsh, but I just know how it is to be in your shoes, and I also know that without help there is a decent change that I wouldn't be here typing this (as bizarre as it sounds).

Have you ever actually wanted to die? I'm not actually depressed at the moment but honestly, having to think about it makes the whole idea seem quite unreal to me. I used to hallucinate, dream, and think about death and not wanting to be.

Point being, depression doesn't usually just go away, it'll start, then get worse. You have the opportunity to get help, being depressed isn't your fault, you just have to acknowledge that you have this condition and you need to do something about it. Doing nothing (as I have tried before) can only damage you further.

Example being: Your going to get help (A good thing indeed) yet you mainly focus on how you believe it to be selfish (Seeing only the worst in something).

Getting help can do no harm, being a depressed person means it's rare that you'll make the right decisions to help yourself get better.

You should be no more ashamed about this help that a person who seeks a doctor due to a broken leg. I'm sure there are plenty of people who need help like this broken leg guy, just as there are people with depression. It's only insulting when you refuse the help that others could have. And again, I don't mean to sound like an arse, being able to relate to you on this makes it so I understand the train of thought.

Depressed you, and the non-depressed you two different people.

[Nobody]

When I said harsh...I did not mean inconsiderate or anything to that extent.

I understand where you're coming from...and must honestly thank you, for your support.

[blaned]

I am not a doctor, just sharing my personal experience as I have had depressions and anxiety for sometime. The best way to get over anxiety and depression is to take a break from your regular schedule, go out, and take good sleep. This helps in clearing the mind and try consulting a specialist who can suggest you as how you can get over your problem. Rather than going on drugs, one should look for the reason behind there problem . Keeping yourself busy and changing the schedule also helps sometimes to get over stress and depression.

[Antipodi]

Sadly depression certainly depression is a bitch but its impossible to get a divorce from her ...she even gets the dog(black dog)

[My9words]

I hope you get better. I've never been depressed, but it sounds like hell.
Unfortunately you can't physically see the cure for it, like with most health problems which is why it's so annyoing.

[Mr. Blocks]

When I said harsh...I did not mean inconsiderate or anything to that extent.

I understand where you're coming from...and must honestly thank you, for your support.

I know it has been a while since I posted, but I am here to say that I am glad you were able to take something from what I said.

I didn't really have anyone to tell me anything when I started locking myself away from people and deleting all my internet accounts on various websites.

"Thinking of my past just gives me another punch in the face. Know what I mean?"

That is so true, having read it again.

I tend to think about all the things I hate about my past as well, which doesn't help. Sometimes I even actually want to think about something horrible just so I feel worse, like that would some how make it better? When I feel worse I become angry, and when I become angry it's easier to distance myself from everything around me.

Depression is a bitch.

[L.Chan.Desu.Desu]

You shouldn't say to yourself that you don't deserve help just because you think you are better off than some others.
See it like this, if I would put weights on your shoulders, at some point you would just collapse.
People train to be able to lift and cope with more weight.
So is the same with emotions, people would say you wouldn't deserve any help and in some cases you would even say this of yourself. But it's not true, it just differs from person to person what you can actually cope with. Aswell we should see the training as overbridging these emotions, doing things you like to do and maybe even exploring and see if there's anything else you might like to do to make you feel better.
Nobody is perfect, but everybody deserves that little help, doesn't matter where it comes from.
Hope you'll be ok, I know I am probably not the person to talk and also quite young having almost no life experience, but I just felt like saying this.
Take good care of yourself and don't let anyone put you down.

[*sean*]

i got some understanding how you feel i been depressed for over a year now but its a very un-usual thing for me before i was happy, full of life, life of the party when i was at them but now im just to my self, cold hearted, and empty. i was thinking about a phsyciatrist but i dont see the point. go there tell them what started it, tell them how i been and so forth but what good will that do? i've spoken about my problem to alot of people and it doesnt change anything.

[Ike]

Never be ashamed. This is something you cannot control. Get the help you need and don't worry about changing. Changing would be a good thing compared to this. I also have depression. I have taken Zoloft since 1988. When i go off my world caves in. I am so glad you are looking to a new future. By now you may be better. Best Wishes.

[Nobody]

Help found, help had, help helped.

[Sir Day]

It's like riding a wave that brings you so low depression
in some cases people go as far as..
"well you know what I mean".
It turned me into a recluse for five years.
Just getting the medication correct
can be a battle.
For people who have lack of salt in the brain. Discovering the right tablet and all above good advice. Get some fresh air and take care.

[TroostAvenue]

Been there and understand all to well.

[NightLighter]

Me too, just gotta keep on keeping on...

[jaxter]

After going through your post I think that you are in great problem. First of all I want to tell you that you should not to panic about your problem because its treatment is possible. You try to consult a good doctor and according to me it is better to you to do yoga. Good luck and take care.

[Sir Day]

When you go to see the psychiatrist be truthful don't hold back they have hear it all before and much more than you would relize. If you haven't already try reading self help books. And try not to lock your self away 24/7 it's easy I know,and don't worry about your eating be your self and try and be content=happyness.